I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
From the time I first turned conscious of the beautiful and awe-inspiring existence of Lord, I’ve liked reading several amazing religious performs just like the Bible (my beloved areas would be the Sermon on the Install and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. Not one of them come near to the effectiveness of a Program in Miracles. Examining it with an open brain and center, your fears and troubles rinse away. You feel conscious of a splendid love serious within you – greater than whatever you realized before. The long run starts to look therefore bright for you personally and your loved ones. You’re feeling passion for everyone else including those you previously have tried to keep excluded. These activities are extremely powerful and occasionally put you off stability a little, but it’s worth every penny: A Program in Miracles introduces you to a love therefore peaceful, so strong and therefore general – you will question how therefore many of the world’s religions, whose goal is allegedly an identical knowledge, got therefore down track.
I wish to state here to any Christian who thinks that his church’s teachings don’t truly meet his thirst to know a type, merciful and supportive Lord, but is fairly afraid to read the Class as a result of others’ states that it’s inconsistent with “true” Christianity: Don’t worry! I have see the gospels often times and I promise you a Course in Miracles is completely consistent with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t anxiety the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these poor persons think themselves to be the only carriers of Jesus’ message, and the only real kinds worthy of his blessings, while all the should go to hell. A Course in Miracles reflects Jesus’ true information: unconditional passion for *all people*. While he was in the world, Jesus said to judge a tree by its fruit. So provide it a take to and see how a fruits that ripen in your life taste. When they taste bad, you are able to reject A Course in Miracles. But if they taste as sweet as quarry do, and the countless other true seekers who are finding A Course in Wonders to be nothing less when compared to a heavenly treasure, then congratulations – and may possibly your center continually be abundantly filled with peaceful, caring joy.
